#12 / Justice

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don't really feel bad for voting out Jim at all?? he openly said multiple times that he was trolling this game and playing for Laura to win because it'd be "funny". ORGs take up a lot of time and playing for someone else to win just makes them even more of a waste of valuable life hours than they already are. 

also I don't know if I've actually said this before but I l♥ve Aras as a person beyond our F2 deal/game stuff. I haven't really clicked with anyone on this cast besides him (and Liz, but I guess that's a little different), and I just really enjoy talking to him about whatever comes up. I NEED someone like that when I'm playing or I just start to lose it. If I don't vibe particularly well with anyone socially the game just gets tired and boring and my will to play drops below zero (warriors 4 hello). basically, THANK GOD 4 ARAS even if he secretly thinks I'm an idiot and talks shit about me in his confessionals

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NATALIE LOST RI I'M SCREAMING!!!!!!!!!!

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omg she's gonna die if it's ACTUALLY me/Liz/Aras in F3

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test

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test

[Sophie Clarke]

test

[Austin]

exam

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thanks guys

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this might be the most substantial confessional you'll see from me this season. WATCH OUT.



seriously, what the hell? if anything, I expected any non-Laura votes this TC to go towards ARAS, not Liz. rookie error, I guess. I think I heavily overestimated Laura's in-game relationship with Liz, because I did not expect Laura to even try flipping the vote that way. I must admit it was kind of clever, though. I made sure to try my best to make So & Abi comfortable about being open about their vote preference with me, and I don't think they have any major reason to be mistrustful of me at this point, so I can only assume that Laura whipped up some kind of whack F3 deal with them and they bought it... or they just thought it would be fun to blindside Liz. idk. it's fucking confusing. either they really do have some elaborate thing going on here, or they just made a dumb move for the fun of it. I'm not sure which is more likely at this point. I guess it doesn't really matter, though - we need to look forward.

we have a couple of options here, and there's definitely one that is more desirable than all of the others: get Abi or So to flip on this revote and send Laura home like originally intended. this keeps me/Liz/Aras safe and in the majority heading into the final 5 (and we'll still have it when the RI returnee comes back in @ 4(?) for final 5 round 2). I don't know how to best attempt to accomplish this, though. if they have some kind of strategic reason for wanting to keep Laura over Liz, it's probably going to be near impossible to convince them to let her go, especially without letting on that I have a close relationship with Liz. if they're just doing it for the drama of it all (or for some other inane reason), it might be a little easier. to me, it seems like it'd be endgame suicide for anyone who is left to take Laura to the end. I mean, pretty much everyone loves Marta (ironically or otherwise, and some A LOT more than others (lol)), she hasn't made a lot of enemies during this game, and her strategic play hasn't been all that bad. The rest of us have obvious game flaws that would make our fights at FTC a little tougher, whether it be not having done much at all throughout the course of the game, having put people who openly dislike us (and likely would never vote for us) on the jury, or something else altogether. I think that'll be my main argument if I do end up trying to convince one of those two to flip (I doubt I'll have time, though - I'll be asleep for like the next 8 hours and by then I think everything will be pretty much settled).

if we can't convince them to flip, we could force rocks. I'm immune, so I have no personal qualms with this (and I will definitely be keeping my vote the same regardless). we have better odds than they do (Aras will be the only one drawing rocks for our side, whereas Abi and So will both draw for theirs), and it's a better bet long-term than Aras flipping and letting Liz go, because that's burning a guaranteed vote and putting us in the minority for sure. at least with rocks we have some semblance of a shot at retaining our majority for the rounds ahead. this is totally up to Aras, though - he'll be the only one of the three of us in danger, and I won't blame him if he decides he's not into the idea. it'd suck to put your fate in the hands of RNG at this stage in the game. I mean, I know Aras is a smart guy, and I'm sure that he's aware that getting rid of Liz is probably the worst possible option as far as the two of us goes. I'm sure he knows that pulling rocks gives the two of us the best shot at making the end, all things considered. His individual game, however, is a different story altogether. I know he knows that I'll give him his idol back after this round if we're both still here, even if he flips on Liz (cos I'm a fucking sook like that and he knows how much I like him), and he very well might just try to go to the end without me if he feels like that's his best shot at getting there, even if it means throwing me under the bus in the process. I don't think that's something I would do to him regardless of how hopeless everything seemed, but I can't reasonably expect him to feel the same way. I get the sense he's a lot more of a gamer than I am, and I respect that. Overall, I can't really complain, because if I don't win, I want it to be him that takes it all out - and if that means I get fucked as collateral on the way because there's no other way for it to be, then so be it.

that's not to say I'm throwing in the towel if Liz does end up going, though. I intend to battle on until every option I have has been exhausted. giving up is for LOSERS. goodnight

eta: can I just add I wrote this while at least 60% drunk? I'm an impressive human

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lol well this wasn't hard